It’s a struggle each day, really. Finding the socks that match. Sweeping
up scattered bird seed and oh, how that dog hair flies. Keeping up with the
dishes in the sink and keeping the front of the fridge shiny and free of
fingerprints and what’s for dinner? There’s that big yellow dog drinking from
the toilet again and every time I look at that wall I’m reminded of the mess I
made of it when I tried to fill in nail holes and paint over my mistakes…only
to make them more pronounced and annoying. And if I trip over one. more. shoe.
left in the middle of the room…! And what’s that funky smell in the garage? Oh,
there’s that computer with the cursor blinking, screaming at me to just DO
SOMEthing, already! And the calendar with so many dates circled in red.
And there’s that headache and the stomach knotting. The constant
treading of water as it threatens higher and higher still. And me looking
through this kaleidoscope of life reaching, grasping, jumping from crumbling
ledges…
and Jesus catching me
every. single. time.
And I have to ask myself, “what is it that I really want?”
What do you really want?
What’s waking you up at night, stealing your sleep and stealing
your thoughts?
Do you want more time?
Peace?
Joy?
Success in business?
Resolution in relationships?
Freedom from financial worry?
Healing and salvation for loved ones?
All the above?
But seek first the kingdom of God and his
righteousness,
and all these things will be added to you.
(Matthew 6:33)
When I think of those who have left the biggest, deepest impressions
on my life and the memories of them that make me whole and complete, there
was nothing but the joy. It didn’t take “things” to create those
moments.
It simply involved a freshly-raked pile of autumn leaves and
hunting for eggs in the garden in the middle of July and searching for shiny
marbles in the dirt and rolling down a green, grassy hill not caring who was
watching and the heavenly aromas filling a warm kitchen on a cold day and the
laughter above it all and sitting, talking and the witnessing of giving and
sharing from the heart.
When I think of what I really want…I want that. To be the
one making those memories with others. To leave the impact. To bring the smile.
To live simply - simply sharing Jesus.
A generous
person will prosper;
whoever
refreshes others will be refreshed.
(Proverbs
11:25)
